This evening I had a magic healing experience that got me back in touch with my wings.
I came home and did 13 sun salutations on my yoga mat. Really focusing on my breathing and enjoying the feeling of moving my body while taking deep breaths. At the end of the sun salutations I held child's pose continuing to take deep breaths while kundalini rushes waved through my body. Now this is a practice I do a lot, 13 sun salutations, child pose, kundalini, and divine insight. It all seems to flow in when I get IN my body.
This evening I heard "Go home, return to your sanctum, your sanctuary." I felt deep into my second chakra where the kundalini convolutions were emanating from. Then I started to see and feel myself hugging the earth and moving into her core. I relaxed in this dark yet comforting womb of the earth. Seeing myself looking at myself as a child of the earth. Returning to the surface with the instructions to "see your self as you really are". My toes and finders started to grow and turn into roots from the tips. The earth had to push me to sit up. I faced my altar and tapped a crystal bowl. I started to move and sway hugging my self so sweetly as if being reborn. I started to call my angels and guides for protection and support in this healing. I called for and exit portal for any in organic energy to leave. Just as I had asked I saw a small skinny tube suck up black ooz from the left side of my spin sending it up and out. This continued for many moments as I sound and shook while a nurse scrubbed my left side. She even had me lift my arm as you would in the shower to scrub your arm pit.
Once the ooze was all sucked up immediately I could see and feel distinct large long wide white wings lifting me from my shoulders, relieving pressure from my spine. These wings were completely supporting me, my spine was not doing any of the work, nor does it have to any longer. See I have or had minor scoliosis in the lower part of my back, with a curve to the right, thus making my left side somewhat weak to support it. But I could really feel like my spine has straightened out. I was sitting up straight with full feeling of confidence in my wings. The true wings I had been looking for. I stood up and knew I could take flight.
Figuratively and energetically the spine is a false structure. It doesn't actually support us. We are made to believe that WE support ourselves individually with our spine. But no we don't. We are actually supported by what is around us. Our community, the food that grows hopefully near by, the air you breath, and the god source light you let it to lift you up where you belong.
Take the physical structure of birds, they all have spines but they do not rely on them for support during flight. They rely on the wind, on mother nature to fly, to move, and to travel all through the tool of using their WINGS. I feel as if I am part of the energetic winged families of birds; owls, doves, hummingbirds, and big wing span birds. As we all are connected to these energies to help us with tasks in this life. Remember how to fly? Just add pixie dust! And let go of trying to solely support yourself. Now is really the time for community, to surround yourself with those who support you to reach your goals from a place of love. Now is more than ever the time to honor the earth, play with her dirt, soil your seeds to grow. Utilize and leverage the natural love energies. You can find it by returning to your body, yourself expansion; your WINGS! FLY little birdies FLY! From the mountain high! Love lifts us up where we belong :)
Maybe it’s the Sacred G Activator stickers I used to decorate my new organization drawers, Beckah Shae’s music, the energy portal that is open today for the 11-11, or the sugar high from the relapse of eating some brownies, whatever the cause may be, I am feeling it!
What I am feeling may also have something to do with the fact that we are in Venus retrograde. This is when past loves are known to come up in your life. During pervious Venus retrogrades I have ran into a few past loves unexpectedly, but this time for me it’s about re-uniting with the core love of who I am. It’s about self-love through God’s consciousness.
I have been going through a major core cleaning at my family’s home. Going trough old items, getting rid of things I don’t need and organizing that which I do, has really “brought it all up.” Causing emotions to rise up to the surface that I have been trying to ignore. I was able to let myself feel them and release them through a new healing sequence I’ve been using. Well now this sequence is updated to incorporate your God Self consciousness.
After I used the clearing sequence, I was praying to god (which is the same thing as asking or commanding the universe) to have my family members and I be fulfilled by our own light. I was crying in joy feeling the unconditional love from god and my star family. I asked how could I have this same love for others? The answer is that I first have to have it for myself. This is where the update comes in.
I envisioned and felt the unconditional love of god come down into my body then flow outside of me to form a part of myself fully merged with god. Therefore I was seeing myself as god. Then I asked myself, “Where have I not been fully loving myself?”
Woooh, wow wwee, there is no hiding from yourself with that question. Once I understood the answer I immediately felt the limitations fly off behind me as my self-love came in. I was saying the EFT clearing statement to myself “I love, forgive and accept myself.” This is you as god loving, forgiving and accepting yourself. That is powerful. That is true freedom. With god and your god self love you really are invincible.
Now I can truly love others in the way I feel love from god because, I gave that love to myself. It’s cliché but true “you can only receive love if you love yourself first.” And I will add this new one “You can only truly love others if you first love yourself.”
This is how to honor thy self. This is self-leadership. This is the real peace movement. This is what stops wars and changes the world. This is 2012. This is the shift. This is ascension. It all starts with self-love through god consciousness; Your God Self.
Take the lyrics of Beckah Shae’s song “Imagine”
“I’m a dreamer, a believer
That there’s hope within our reach
I’m going to take a stand and agree
The healing begins with me
There’s a better way
We don’t have to die anymore
Open up your eyes and see the need
We can make a difference with our own lives
If we let love arise from the inside
Heed the call and be all we were made to be
Imagine if we were all rich
Imagine if we all knew peace
Imagine if we all gave love
The way that God gave love
We’d have so much more than enough”
I write Shiny Sentences